Four heads in this bed. There are 4 heads that lie down to sleep in this bed every night. One of them is mine and the other 3 are the only heads that matter in this world. Before these 3 heads in my bed the night could be very scary. All alone with my thoughts. Growing anxious about work or family or friends. Coldness and loneliness all around. Things always seem worse at night. Now these 3 heads and their warm bodies surround me and protect me from the night. Even when the thoughts start to swarm or my worry about something keeps me up, these heads keep it in perspective. There is nothing bigger in my life than these 3. Nothing that can harm me as long as they are here. Last week something happened that really upset me. I felt scared and vulnerable. But that night I went to bed between these 3. My head was snuggled against 2 other heads that had spilled onto my pillow and this problem suddenly seemed so small. It shrunk in size right before my eyes. How can anything really be that bad or matter that much when I have these guys? I imagine they feel the same, the little ones don’t think of this as clearly as I do, but I know that they feel safe here.
