{"id":2254,"date":"2014-07-24T20:35:16","date_gmt":"2014-07-24T20:35:16","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thebadassbreastfeeder.com\/?p=2254"},"modified":"2015-01-28T00:17:23","modified_gmt":"2015-01-28T00:17:23","slug":"i-forgot-to-help-my-newborn-breastfeeding-the-second-time","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thebadassbreastfeeder.com\/?p=2254","title":{"rendered":"I Forgot to Help My Newborn: Breastfeeding the Second Time"},"content":{"rendered":"

It makes sense that things would be easier the second time around. I heard this from many Moms with more than one child. \u201cIt\u2019s so much easier with the second one!\u201d We are much more relaxed this time. We don\u2019t try to be quiet in the house, we don\u2019t listen to the advice and we don\u2019t stress about every little odd thing that Exley does. It\u2019s been smooth. A lot smoother than the early days with my first son, Jack.<\/p>\n

Except for breastfeeding.<\/p>\n

\"AT<\/p>\n

Exley passed all of his meconium by day 2 or so. Then his poop turned green as he began to pass the \u201ctransitional stools.\u201d But then they just stayed green. For like a week. I kept expecting that they would turn yellow, but each diaper change it was just seedy green poop. I e-mailed my friend Nancy Mohrbacher, IBCLC, FILCA<\/a>. She told me that once Exley came that I should reach out to her if I needed anything. I wasn\u2019t going to mess around. When breastfeeding Jack<\/a> I took every piece of bad advice and went home and cried that my breastfeeding relationship with him was going to end. I didn\u2019t know where to turn except to the internet and that was just a huge wasteland of confusing information. So I was quick to get reliable help this time.<\/p>\n

Nancy wrote back and said that the green poop<\/a> wasn\u2019t an issue in and of itself. As long as Exley was gaining about an ounce a day and having at least 3 to 4 poops a day then all was probably hunky dory. She suggested starting some breast compressions<\/a> in the meantime just to help Exley get a bit more milk. A few days later I took Exley to get weighed with another lactation consultant friend of mine who ran a local breastfeeding walk-in clinic. He had gained 4 ounces in 10 days. My heart sank. How could this be happening again? Not this weight problem, Jack didn\u2019t have that, but just breastfeeding issues in general. This was my second time. I was supposed to be immune to problems. I latched the baby on and I was supposed to trust my body and my baby. Isn\u2019t that what everyone says!? (Including me). One thing was for sure. I was confident in the help I was getting from new friends. I knew that they wouldn\u2019t steer me wrong. I knew that they respected my wishes to breastfeed and were going to work to make this successful for me. Even with all the worry I carried for Exley, I felt less isolated than with Jack because I had surrounded myself with people who put my wishes and my son as their top priority.<\/p>\n

\"Maggie<\/a><\/p>\n

My friend also did a check for lip and tongue tie<\/a>. It looked as though Exley may be tied, but not severely. And even if he was it didn\u2019t automatically mean that this was the cause of the problem; only about 25%<\/a> of babies with lip and tongue ties have breastfeeding problems. I decided to try some other interventions first. I called Nancy when I got home and she said that he had gained some<\/em> weight and so there should only need to be a few tweaks in order to get back on track. She asked how tandem nursing<\/a> was going. I said, already having felt the magnitude of this decision, \u201cit\u2019s a cluster fuck.\u201d She suggested being more mindful about when Jack nurses and from which breast so that Exley was always getting a full breast. Great idea, I had not been doing this. She suggested working on Exley\u2019s latch<\/a>. I had done a lot of work with Jack on this and knew how to do it. Awesome, done. She asked how the breast compressions were going. I described what I had been doing. She described back to me that I would continue to do this when I switched breasts. Uh, switch breasts? This very common, simple and necessary breastfeeding technique had completely left my brain. I forgot to be switching him from breast to breast! Ugh, how could I be so dumb? I was stunned that I could forget such a simple, almost instinctual, technique. Breastfeeding a toddler is mindless. I never think about what Jack is doing. He does it all himself. Even switching. He unlatches and says \u201cDis boobie,\u201d and points to the other one. This had been my normal breastfeeding life for 2 years. \u201cI think we may know what the issue is,\u201d I said to Nancy.<\/p>\n

Now I had a solid plan. I would do these things for another week and get him weighed again. That week was pretty bad. I was so anxious. What was wrong with Exley? Did he have some disease? What if he didn\u2019t gain weight? What if there was something serious wrong? Even after identifying issues that were obviously leading to the slow weight gain I still became completely fearful and irrational. This may have been my second time around, but this was my first time with this new baby. I was just a new Mom. Like everyone else. Vulnerable, scared, confused. I thought back to all of the breastfeeding advice I had given. I was so confident and calm when it was someone else\u2019s baby. I have so much faith in other mothers being able to get through the rough times. It\u2019s all so different when it\u2019s your baby. It\u2019s so emotional. The fears are irrational. It\u2019s hard to see straight.<\/p>\n

\"AT<\/a><\/p>\n

I became completely obsessed with breastfeeding Exley. I hid from Jack sometimes so that Exley could eat even though Nancy assured me that Jack was doing nothing but helping boost my supply. All of my lactation consultant friends assured me that continuing to breastfeed Jack was a safe decision. I stared at Exley every time he ate to make sure he was getting milk. I played with his latch at every feeding to get it perfect. I immersed myself in breastfeeding.<\/p>\n

I had become so confident in this whole \u201ctrust your baby and your body\u201d mantra that I didn\u2019t even lend Exley a hand to get him started. I latched him on and figured he was good to go. \u201cHe knows what to do! He\u2019ll just do it all himself. I trust my baby!\u201d Oy. I was feeling pretty down about it. But the amazing thing about reliable and trustworthy support is that they<\/em> do believe in you. They won\u2019t judge you or push any other agenda. I want to breastfeed and so Nancy was going to help make that happen. She said, \u201cDon\u2019t be too hard on yourself. It\u2019s pretty common for a second time Mom to forget how much help a newborn needs.\u201d That comment really helped alleviate the guilt. It was true. I was so far removed from the newborn days that I just\u2026 forgot.<\/p>\n

\"AT<\/p>\n

I waited through each day until the following Wednesday came when I could visit my friend who would weigh Exley again. When that day came I had butterflies in my stomach. I couldn\u2019t wait to put him on that scale. And when I did my eyes popped out of my head. He had gained 11 ounces in just 1 week! Holy moly! It worked! When you think about it I didn\u2019t even do that<\/em> much. A few tweaks as suggested from a professional and everything was fixed. Just like that. By his 1 month birthday the breastfeeding struggled had been sorted out. And that<\/em> made the difference for me. Not that I was immune to problems or that as a second time Mom I was supposed to have all of the answers. Just that I had been down a rough road before and knew how to protect myself this time. And the answer to that was to reach out for help and be willing to accept it.<\/p>\n

With my first son I don\u2019t think I knew how to accept help. Even in the moments when I knew I needed it I don\u2019t think I knew what it meant to accept it. I have always done everything myself. And I have always been pretty good at whatever I was doing, which, as a social worker, usually surrounded helping others. But me? Need help? Never. Giving birth rocked my world. Breastfeeding brought me to my knees. The process of learning how to breastfeed and then how to be a mother showed me clearly that this cannot be done alone. We need each other. I learned how to open myself up. To simply ask for help. And most importantly listen, follow through and accept what is being said to me.<\/p>\n

\"Maggie<\/a><\/p>\n

You might be reading this saying \u201cwell, we can\u2019t all have Nancy Mohrbacher to rely on.\u201d That\u2019s not true! Nancy has developed an amazing, low cost, easy to use, app for iPhone and Android called Breastfeeding Solutions<\/a>. I also wrote a review<\/a> for it. I highly recommend this for pregnant and breastfeeding mothers to get that reliable help early.<\/p>\n

Abby Theuring, MSW<\/p>\n

**Photos courtesy of Tiny Bubbles Family Photography by Leslie. Please visit her website<\/a> and Like her Facebook <\/a>page.\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

**And by Maggie Cuprisin Photography. Please visit her website<\/a> and Facebook<\/a> page.\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

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